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最近终于把很多繁重的事情都忙完了。感觉轻松许多。 今天跟栾老师的小孩补了最后一堂课。 答应老师帮忙是因为当年她帮了我一个大忙, 改变了我的人生。我很感激。 所以现在觉得特别有满足感和成就感。 心情重新好起来。 好棒。

那天, 头的上半部分疼得我眼泪都快飙出来了。 不仅隐隐作痛, 还开始觉得想吐。 中午还晃了一下。 像两年前那样。。。 是。两年了。 很快吧? 妈妈不放心, 带我去看医生。 看的医生不同, 怎么说的话却一样。 我吃了三天的药。 还是觉得头快要炸开。 我实在不想回到那时候。 我必须跳出来。

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This week has been a hectic one yet at the same time quite happening. While I have been slogging very hard to get certain things done by mid-September, I have had a fair share of recreational activities although they all revolve around dramas, which are fortunately my favourite form of leisure. I managed to catch 3 pretty good shows this week and I like to jot some thoughts down lest I come back again in the near future to recollect some feelings when watching these productions. Wild City (迷城) I was once a huge fan of Louis Koo that I would watch almost all of his films. This one was an impromptu decision because a friend was keen and asked for my company. I like how the director Ringo Lam established the characters, especially Shawn Yue's role. The way Ringo Lam cast the roles of Louis Koo and Shawn Yue in very different lights yet highlighted the rapport between them really convinced and delighted me. However, I find certain parts too cliche, although I could tell and did appreci...

When I declined the position of Class Management Head in Sec 2 and that of Class Chairperson in Sec 4, I knew I was not someone that greedy for power. I do not deny that many things I do I do it for recognition from the people around me. I do not deny that I need such recognition to obtain a sense of security. Yet at the end of the day, I still believe there is a difference between wanting to be recognised and wanting to have power in hand. I have often heard about how I could be a good leader because I am efficient. Deep down, I know these people who sing such praises of me do not observe me well enough to know what kind of a person I really am. I used to rely heavily on such compliments because they are nice looking walls that I conveniently build around myself to feel safe and good. But I know for myself that they crumble easily too. These days I have a better idea of my working style. I am but downright a minion. I cannot lead. Absolutely not. Because I am too insistent on my way o...

我超不喜欢这种感觉。 拼了命想把事情做到最好，不能得到认同，也不能得到谅解。 很无奈。 很不公平。 如果说现在我是花天酒地，还是不务正业，我没话说。 但我现在正当工作做得半死不活，然后再兼两份差，无非是为了得到更多收获。 我同样是身心疲惫，尽管我的贡献没那么多。 我不理解我错在哪里。 我很努力。 这两天特别努力，好想证明自己的实力。 想证明我的学历没一些人高，但我办事能力远胜一些人。 所以在这场无谓的战斗力，我筋疲力尽。 换来的却是如此伤人的话。 我好累。 我到底是为了什么。

I have mixed feelings. They are nothing too negative, therefore not corrosive. I am fine, I just think slightly more today. Slightly more than usual. Chris asked to meet. So we did today. He wanted to tell me about his plan to propose to Yunni. But he had done it before we met. So we kind of talked more about future plans and who he was going to invite to his wedding. It seemed like we were only talking about it over dinner some time ago and he was saying all these would not happen so soon. There, it is happening already. While I do not really tell him, I am glad he always thinks of me whenever he moves on to the next stage of his life. He always makes it a point to tell me. I do not know what I did to deserve this, but I am just glad. I am actually very tired. Mentally. Work piles up everyday and even so, I think that is fine because I like to be constructively occupied. I just really want to keep up with people whom I love and care for. I even turn down appointments to want to spend ...