my mixed feelings
I have mixed feelings.
They are nothing too negative, therefore not corrosive. I am fine, I just think slightly more today. Slightly more than usual.
Chris asked to meet. So we did today. He wanted to tell me about his plan to propose to Yunni. But he had done it before we met. So we kind of talked more about future plans and who he was going to invite to his wedding. It seemed like we were only talking about it over dinner some time ago and he was saying all these would not happen so soon. There, it is happening already. While I do not really tell him, I am glad he always thinks of me whenever he moves on to the next stage of his life. He always makes it a point to tell me. I do not know what I did to deserve this, but I am just glad.
I am actually very tired. Mentally.
Work piles up everyday and even so, I think that is fine because I like to be constructively occupied. I just really want to keep up with people whom I love and care for. I even turn down appointments to want to spend some time with people I have not met for a while, but I often end up being turned down too. Some people say, as work gets too busy, you find yourself unable to keep in touch with certain people. That is how people drift. I am trying to prevent that from happening despite being busy, but I realised it is so tough. Takes two to clap after all.
And no matter what happens, I tell myself not to get too upset. I know for myself that sadness is part of life and it is normal to feel that way, but I have lost enough during my worst times. I figure it is better to be what I am now. Then again, that makes me feel like life has changed me.
See, I said I have mixed feelings today.
They are nothing too negative, therefore not corrosive. I am fine, I just think slightly more today. Slightly more than usual.
Chris asked to meet. So we did today. He wanted to tell me about his plan to propose to Yunni. But he had done it before we met. So we kind of talked more about future plans and who he was going to invite to his wedding. It seemed like we were only talking about it over dinner some time ago and he was saying all these would not happen so soon. There, it is happening already. While I do not really tell him, I am glad he always thinks of me whenever he moves on to the next stage of his life. He always makes it a point to tell me. I do not know what I did to deserve this, but I am just glad.
I am actually very tired. Mentally.
Work piles up everyday and even so, I think that is fine because I like to be constructively occupied. I just really want to keep up with people whom I love and care for. I even turn down appointments to want to spend some time with people I have not met for a while, but I often end up being turned down too. Some people say, as work gets too busy, you find yourself unable to keep in touch with certain people. That is how people drift. I am trying to prevent that from happening despite being busy, but I realised it is so tough. Takes two to clap after all.
And no matter what happens, I tell myself not to get too upset. I know for myself that sadness is part of life and it is normal to feel that way, but I have lost enough during my worst times. I figure it is better to be what I am now. Then again, that makes me feel like life has changed me.
See, I said I have mixed feelings today.
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