every day.

You know, since the day we parted, there isn't a single day when I don't wake up in the morning or going to bed at night thinking about it.
Not a single day.

Everywhere I go, there is bound to be something that reminds me of you.
I tried going beyond this country, but every little thing could still remind me of you.
And I thought, maybe this period would be best, since we are not allowed to go anywhere?

But nope, it feels worse actually.
You are still everywhere.

It's been almost two years.
And I don't try fighting for a closure anymore.
Still, it bites me all the time. The fact that I did a wrong thing - walk away.

I don't know how better I could have done this.
Just why, why do I have to live with this guilt?

Why do I have to lose everything, including you?
What is the point of achieving my dreams when you are not there to share with me my joy?

From that day till today, I have never been happy.
There is so much I want to tell you.
But never, ever will I get the chance again.

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