My favourite person.
And so, it all happened as I had imagined before.
You sitting at the last row of the bus which I board.
Except when it really played out in reality, I did not know how to react.
That was the fifth time we coincided.
The first being in the cinema when we had each gone to watch Deadpool with our respective friends. We went to watch Deadpool 2 together two years later.
Second, Suntec City, after you finished watching a movie with your friend.
I was with my two best friends then, and I shouted your name from afar.
You said you had a bad day and did not hear me.
Third, in the train cabin at one-north station. You were on your phone, playing Pokemon Go perhaps.
I snapped my fingers in front of you.
We hardly spoke.
The fourth time, in the train cabin at Bugis station. You were staring into blank space.
I snapped my fingers in front of you again, and asked why we always met in the train cabin.
We had a good chat, at least it was considerably good given we had stopped talking for so long earlier.
That day, I kept asking myself, what if I met you again?
What do I do? What do I say?
Then I dismissed the thought, because I did not think we would meet again.
Because I always wanted to see you, but never did.
Then you were on the bus.
Was it meant to be?
I snapped my fingers again.
This time, you did not really bother.
And so I moved in.
We were one seat apart, but we were also worlds apart.
You could always easily move on from someone you never loved.
But I could not.
You were my favourite person for a long time.
That very day you said you needed a time off, I was never happy again.
Like you, I am still looking for that happy place.
I try so hard everyday.
But when I last saw you two days ago, I know.
It is the end.
I really, really hope, if ever, I see you again, I would learn to walk away.
I wished you knew just how much I have loved you.
I really, really loved you.
And I just wished, for just one moment, it was mutual.
Anyway.
You will always be that favourite person in my life.
Goodbye, stupid.
Wherever we are in life, I always wish you well.
May we find our happy place from now on.
You sitting at the last row of the bus which I board.
Except when it really played out in reality, I did not know how to react.
That was the fifth time we coincided.
The first being in the cinema when we had each gone to watch Deadpool with our respective friends. We went to watch Deadpool 2 together two years later.
Second, Suntec City, after you finished watching a movie with your friend.
I was with my two best friends then, and I shouted your name from afar.
You said you had a bad day and did not hear me.
Third, in the train cabin at one-north station. You were on your phone, playing Pokemon Go perhaps.
I snapped my fingers in front of you.
We hardly spoke.
The fourth time, in the train cabin at Bugis station. You were staring into blank space.
I snapped my fingers in front of you again, and asked why we always met in the train cabin.
We had a good chat, at least it was considerably good given we had stopped talking for so long earlier.
That day, I kept asking myself, what if I met you again?
What do I do? What do I say?
Then I dismissed the thought, because I did not think we would meet again.
Because I always wanted to see you, but never did.
Then you were on the bus.
Was it meant to be?
I snapped my fingers again.
This time, you did not really bother.
And so I moved in.
We were one seat apart, but we were also worlds apart.
You could always easily move on from someone you never loved.
But I could not.
You were my favourite person for a long time.
That very day you said you needed a time off, I was never happy again.
Like you, I am still looking for that happy place.
I try so hard everyday.
But when I last saw you two days ago, I know.
It is the end.
I really, really hope, if ever, I see you again, I would learn to walk away.
I wished you knew just how much I have loved you.
I really, really loved you.
And I just wished, for just one moment, it was mutual.
Anyway.
You will always be that favourite person in my life.
Goodbye, stupid.
Wherever we are in life, I always wish you well.
May we find our happy place from now on.
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