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To the fking idiot who cheated on and abandoned my dearest friend, you will never be happy. And to the girl who decided to stick to him, if he can do this to a woman who did so much for him, he could do this to you too. I hate that I cannot slap you but you will suffer your retribution later.

To my dearest, I know it hasn't been easy for you. It has been a long four months and you have been suffering so much. As much as I have been telling you to move on and be firm about letting go, I know how difficult it must have been for you. For like you, I also thought he was going to be the one for you. When I heard what had taken place, I really couldn't believe my ears. I recalled that one time when you were flying off to do your degree studies, he actually texted me to do a video for him because he wanted to compile some videos to surprise you. At that point I thought he was a reliable man and I was truly happy for you. I don't know if you knew about this. And I never once brought it up since you told me about what happened in January, because I didn't want to bring back bad memories for you when you have only just managed to come this far after so long. I would be as mad you as you, I already am. How could he do this to you when you have done so much for him? And...

Boss asked me into her office today and asked me why I had snapped at a colleague yesterday. Her question kind of came as a surprise for me because I had meant my words as a joke the day before. I explained that I was kidding and had clarified with the colleague earlier. She complimented that it was good that I had done a recovery and advised that I should learn to carry myself well in front of others, because there may be some who do not know me or do not take jokes very well. I agreed with her, absolutely, for I think I know better how some people really lack a sense of humor. More importantly, I was extremely grateful to her for having told me what she had because that meant a lot to me. I often joke without thinking properly and end up offending people without myself knowing, hence I really appreciate when people tell me what is wrong and give me a chance to change myself, if need be. My boss told me she saw a lot of potential in me and did not want a silly mistake to jeopardize my...

Today was one of those days especially taxing for the brain, as I had two presentations in class, one of which I had spent days and nights working on in the last couple of weeks. Even during the two days when I was sick and on MC from work, I was working on it too. They probably make up less than 30% of my overall grade but I think I really slogged very hard before today.  I have to say though, that today has been one of the most fulfilling days in 2017. The group presentation came first. I was feeling, frankly, slightly unprepared as I had little time to work on it amidst my work and another assignment of the other module. The teacher was however very satisfied with the presentation and commended that I brought up some very good points which I had always wanted to share about translation. Less than 2 hours later, I was up again for my individual presentation, which kind of achieved a lot better impact that I had thought. The classmates were very amused. That kind of tickled me too...