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New department is not as good as I expected earlier, I think. In the first place, I should not be pinning hopes. Rather, I should not be so naive? Sometimes, I think my naivety has reached an unrivaled level that I find myself pathetic. The game of marginalisation, somewhat too familiar for me, has come back again. This time, however, it brings with it many lessons for me to learn. I told myself before, I would come back from my break and live in my cave. I think I have yet to practise it, largely because my character does not allow me to. So many people have spoken to me these days. I figure I really need to learn, the hard way if need be. Perhaps right from the beginning, I have never been someone who fits in easily.

Let it go man. Let it go.