trauma

I had a panic attack this morning.

Thankful for nice colleagues who helped me feel a lot better by noon, or I will still be shivering at a corner.

I was just talking about it with the housemate and J on two separate occasions. And it happened.

The problem is so real.

I guess there comes a day... I need to be firm about my decision.
And it shall be soon.

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