I think, deep down I am more than certain that LL laoshi knew I feigned illness that day to avoid attending the book launch and seeing some people. He always knows about it. But he always keeps quiet, even though once in a while he tries to tell me in an indirect way that I must learn to let go. He even hinted to me that other people would be attending the event to prepare me mentally. But eventually I was unable to come to terms with myself so I didn't turn up after all. He just knew. I always thought he would probably be a little mad at me for being so unprofessional. But yesterday when he passed by the couplets booth, the first thing he asked me was whether I would like to join his family for steamboat tonight. I was really, really touched by his generosity. I gladly obliged. Of course I had to. I could tell that he probably thinks I have changed, or have revealed that overly-emotional side of me, but he has never given up on me. And this, is why I always respect him. After dinner little Ella and I held hands and walked to the MRT station. It was quite a long journey home. We chatted and laughed. It was a silly conversation but so innocent. I actually felt a lot better after spending some time with her.

I think a genuine break is when you are able to feel at ease, wherever you are. She made me feel at ease today.

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