tacenda

Dear Mr. Lee When I was a small girl, I had heard bad things about you. Not that I remember what they were about, but I recall that they had to be negative remarks, because my father never liked you. I even disliked you under the influence of my father, but without an intimate knowledge of the nation's history then. When I got older, my relationship with my father turned sour. We never talked about you anymore. I began to take a neutral stand because I knew I was in no position to judge you without knowing enough what you did for the nation. When my father was dying and in a delirious state, the last line he mumbled was not having caught you. I kind of gave up hope on him. For at his deathbed he did not ask about the well being of his family, nor about his siblings who had sided him in every ridiculous way possible, but he was concerned about his never-going-to-happen battle with you. I did not spend hours queuing up to pay you my last respect. Nor did I watch any programmes that r...

有时候呢, 不得不觉得人生很奇妙。 往往一些特地不去触碰的事情, 却越是在你面前晃。 像是今天值班的时候, 竟然有学生问起他的论文, 问我哪里可以找到。 我当时笑了出来。 自然不是开心地笑, 但也算不上是苦笑。 感觉有点讽刺意味。 因为真的, 发生这种情况的几率会多高啊? 简直就是个笑话。 昨天, 小学朋友一大早传来简讯问要不要晚餐。 见面时他说是因为想在出国前见一见想见的人。 超感动的。 毕竟, 这年头讲感情的人太少了。 我很愉快地分享了过去这阵子发生的一切。说起来有点艰酸, 不过对于自己一路走来感到很自豪。 这两周不知道是不是书看得多一些, 可以修身养性, 心里的平静感特别强而有力。遇到不开心的事, 让自己静一静, 感觉就好很多。这是我一直希望可以保持的。 加油吧。

Life has been pretty hectic I have hardly any time to pen my thoughts down. But while work has been getting on me these days, life has been busy in a positive way and keeping me constructively occupied. I had an enjoyable time lunching with Mic and I finally satisfied my craving for the green tea crepe at Lady M. It dawned on me that we are dealing with the same type of people and perhaps, at every workplace there is bound to be an issue like that for us to handle. I have learnt, that maybe I should change my perspective a little. Maybe not of that person, but how I deal with the negative feelings that I get whenever I work with this person. Nothing much was so happening because I have pretty much only switched between work and home. The past few meals after work were with my housemate who is flying off for her holidays tonight. But well, last night, Dr. Ho was very nice to have kh and I for dinner together. His intention was obvious, even though I kind of expected the outcome...

As I have always harped on, there is a limit to any individual's patience. While that is the case, I find myself raising my threshold each time my tail gets stepped on, instead of flaring up. Nope, it is not because I am kind or very forgiving or patient. I just do not like confrontations nor see the need to do so. But when I do, I  believe things will look really ugly. And I am trying all I can to avoid it.

Well, I  did not do any work this weekend after all. It was another game of badminton with the best friend, as well as with Zhuang and his gf. I guess it is good to play this intensively two times a week especially when I do not exercise so regularly. I enjoyed the adrenaline rush and perspiring so much. It was however quite taxing on the knee and the repercussions can sometimes be a little too much to take, given that I am only this young. The weekend has been spent lazily but honestly it was good to spend it this way. My long wait for Tavia and Ruco's new drama finally paid off and I finished 5 episodes in one shot. Now I feel very much like a drug addict all over again -- hooked! I am soooo looking forward to the end of the coming week. It is so difficult to find a good drama these days and I feel alive once again!

I  felt I hadn't been a good daughter in a while and so I decided to accompany mum out after dinner to get what she needed. It turned out that she paid more for me. The Marvel Hawaiian collection was on sale again and like always, I ran over to take a look, not in the hope that mum would allow me to get it (even though I'm now a full grown adult I still respect her when it comes to buying household necessities). I was surprised when she suggested that I got one, though in the end we got two because she saw that I couldn't make up my mind between the two designs. After that she got me a pair of comfy shoes because I had been complaining about knee pain due to lousy footwear. My mum loves me and I have always known that. It's just that she hardly pampers me and many a times I really yearn for that. I guess while I am already at the half mark of my twenties, deep down I cannot be more childish. My youngest sis would know that best. On a side note, after shopping with my mu...