Christmas mood.

A mailed me a parcel with a metal tin of cards and stickers inside and a big Christmas card. I was really touched by the contents in the card. Indeed, as a woman and a friend who has known me for more than a decade, she knows me well enough. But I meant it when I said that I was recovering. This time it really felt easier. In fact, everything else feels relatively better to cope. When I say "relatively" I think I mean relative to the big crisis that happened a couple of months back. I don't think anything else that happened this year had drained more energy from me. And while cliché it sounds, it's time to move forward.

Sunday night we had a Christmas barbecue. I couldn't help but think back to the good old days. We have grown so much. I got Z's book during the present exchange, and have started reading. I think everything happens for a reason. Perhaps, this inspirational book has come to help lift me out of rock bottom too.

Very thankful.

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