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The wait has come to an end, or so I hope. I got a confirmation call to inform that I had been shortlisted. I ought to be happy, I suppose. But as a matter of fact, I was not particularly ecstatic. If anything, I was just contented. Nothing gets me too excited these days. I was reminded of the last time I went through a phase like this. That period, I think it took me a year and the phase was pretty painful with all the other dramas going on in my life. This time, it was a lot better. My friends were ever so encouraging. A part of me, however, cannot help but be paranoid. The last time I got an offer, I went through the toughest part of my life thus far. This time, I am so worried that gaining something might mean I might lose some soon.  But a friend often tells me, "Law of Attraction".  I have been reminding myself this time and again.  Believe in the positive, and it will come to you.

可惜回不去那一秒 你好不好?

Dear Mr. Yeo I have not written to you in a while, have I? I dreamt of a man who looked so much like you last night. But that was not you. You would have been more composed, less stern and a lot friendlier. Somehow, in the dream, I cried very, very badly, to the point that I found my eyes wet with tears when I woke up this morning. I wonder if it meant that you have gone to another world and would never appear in my dreams anymore. That thought brought tears to my eyes once again. But I know, you have to leave for somewhere better.  It has been four years. The image of you talking to me at the Deck is still lucid in my head. I listened to your advice and started pursuing a diploma in Translation some time after I started working. And I am already finishing the course!  Your words often ring in my head, be it those you said when you were still around or in my dreams. I always try to ensure I check up the dictionary when I am not too sure, and I share with my friends what you sh...