tacenda

I guess I could never feel more hurt than being accused by a friend I care for so much. This could be why, I no longer care.

This feeling of loss still returns, occasionally. I think I could better manage it last time because of stronger beliefs. Now, I am pinning on what is left of me. Optimism? Sometimes, maybe.  I think compared to a long time back, I am a lot more positive now. But this feeling of helplessness still bugs me a lot, especially when work really does not motivate me at all these days. I want to find that passion and energy back so much. I do not even know what my stumbling blocks are. And really, it does not help that there is just so much negative energy going on around me. I find myself always trying so hard to steer clear.  And am still trying very hard.