什么时候
不知道从什么时候开始, 我对于约朋友出门聚餐已经不再热衷。 不知道从什么时候开始, 我对于别人的误会已经懒于多作解释。 不知道从什么时候开始, 我只喜欢一个人到处走走停停。 迷惘就是这么一回事吗? 我其实有点累。 但我还是很努力。
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comm breakdown
Maybe I am the problematic one. Maybe I am the one who doesn't know how to communicate with others. I really think I tried. Maybe not hard enough.
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I feel helpless trying to keep up with everyone's expectations. I really think I am doing my best. How come no one sees it?
my new year
The new year may have begun as far back as 20 days ago, but I only felt a fresh start when the plane I was on touched down last weekend. In all honesty, I was very proud of myself to have explored Taipei on my own. Perhaps I had been too comfortable and at ease when I was away, that I told myself I would embrace everything that came later with courage. Yet, reality set in so fast. Way too fast. I returned to work on Monday feeling more cheerful than not. But merely twenty minutes into work mode, I was already feeling extremely dejected with all the bombs dropped on me. When tears were welling up in my eyes, I bumped into a colleague who was looking the way I did. And then I came to terms that I wasn't alone. But it didn't help that the second day wasn't any better. I'm actually really very, very tired. And it's only the third week of the new year. Sixty percent of the time today, my mind tells me to give up and leave. And so I'm only counting on the remaining fo...
Selective memory
I actually had in my head the things I wanted to mention when the end of 2015 drew close, like a form of reflection or conclusion, the sort of thing everyone does yearly. But I didn't eventually. The thoughts were in a mess. They were simple, yet very complex at the same time. I'm not sure if this was why I didn't pen anything down in the end. Maybe I was just lazy, or maybe I just really didn't know where to start. When 2015 was coming to an end, I took some time to ask myself: what are the 3 best things and 3 worst things that had happened in 2015? Then I realised I was being ambitious by asking myself to list 3, when I couldn't even name a single one for either case. As a result, when friends around me asked how I would conclude 2015, I gave a standard answer, i.e. It has been a peaceful one. I didn't mean peaceful in a positive manner, but neither was it negative. I just couldn't think of a term that described the generally neutral emotions I had for the...
难题
尽管知道人生不如意之事十之八九，但听到自己不爱听的消息就还是会不快。 毕竟我用了很长一段时间来复原，不想再去触碰。 又或者，自始至终，我到底有没有复原? 老实说，我是真的非常希望有个人能够很理智地跟我分析这个问题。