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So last week I finally attended Jacky Cheung's concert. I don't think I can put into words how good he was. Every minute of the show was very much an enjoyment. The visual effects, the stage design, his performance, his singing, everything was just too good. I really liked how he put a lot of thought into the whole concert and that he delivered it very sincerely. I cannot imagine him coming back to do the same in five years' time. I can only say I am very glad I chose to go again this time even though I have attended his concert once in 2012. His classic ballads after encore brought back lots of memories for me. There were no specific episodes that came to mind, just fragments of schooling days when I would listen to his songs. Gosh, it's been a good two decades. Thank you so much, Jacky Cheung.  Yesterday was one of those better days in the last many weeks, or so I think. Class was pretty interesting, but I must say I am beginning to feel the pressure. I went back home...

Day 6 of break.  I actually had to look up my calendar to count how many days it has been. I am not very used to taking a long break ever since I started work. All the times I took leave from work, I would go overseas and that did not render me much time to be free. These days I have been roaming around, in the house, hoping to get some inspiration for my translation assignment. I do a bit of work out when I am free, but it seems most of the time I am in bed. I had nightmares about work again last night, despite not having touched any work-related stuff for days. Perhaps those thoughts are still lingering somewhere in my head.  Chew wanted to meet to celebrate my birthday which was long overdue. While waiting for her to come from work, I sat on one of the benches along Singapore River. The weather was a lot warmer than I would have loved. My mind was a blank. On hindsight, I thought that might be a good thing, for I do not remember the last time my mind ever went blank.  ...

累得不想有表情 忙得厌烦了呼吸 难得和这城市中断联系 在一个人的途上 途人不会怪我不回信息 路灯不会问我 有问题怎么处理 让我在我的人生里消失 把来历都忘记 什么关系 都没关系 只有空气 不用争气 暂时跟这个世界保持安静的距离 热闹容易 难得孤寂 我才舍不得问自己 从哪里来 又要往哪里去 累得不想有表情 忙得厌烦了呼吸 难得和这城市中断联系 终于不用有动机 喘口气不用那么有出息 难得在人际的夹缝里找到空隙 让我慢条斯理无所事事 把时间都忘记 总是有太多事需要顾忌 总会有太多人需要惦记 总是要活得太小心翼翼 什么关系 都没关系 只有空气 不用争气 容许我和这亲爱的世界若即若离 热闹容易 难得孤寂 只有我不追问自己 从哪里来又要往哪里去 甚至懒得知道我在哪里

So... Today was my first day of my considerably long break. I cancelled my no-pay leave after some deliberation and took my own leave instead. The nightmare problem has not got a lot better these days. I still wake up in the middle of the night, and then feeling very lethargic the next day. If anything, I think I have lost count of the times this happens. As far as I could remember, it has been about one month since the problem started. I do not know if my health has been compromised, but I do think the giddiness problem does not get any better. This feels like the state I was in three years back. This time, however, I am determined to be positive about it and not let things get worse.  Yesterday, being the "last" day of work, was pretty happening. Since it was only a two-week break, not many people bothered. And so I was exceptionally thankful for the people who actually remembered and asked me to rest well. They did not have to, so that was nice. In the afternoon, I was tol...